Well... I haven't been online for quite some time, well... rarely nowadays, been thinking on stuff what to do and sorting out other things as well.

But I won't be here, again, because we're taking my dad back home in HK. So yeah, more time off for me, again.

So sorry that I haven't replied nor seen everyone's work. (TT__TT ) All the messages are piling up and will get the chance to see them when I will returned. Hope everyone is ok? I miss talking to people online but I have too much stuff to think about right now. Big sorry to everyone.

Take care people and will be back within a month or so.

It's Chinese New Year of the Boar here in England. Hope you guys have a good year!

恭喜發財 (Kung hei fat choi)

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Sorry but f*** Valentine's day. It's my Dad's birthday and he would of been 70 this year. Yeah, morbid to mention, I know but I really do hate Valentine's day with a passion, so I'm replace this day in my calendar his birthday.

/( ^u^)/ [link] \(^u^ )\
生日快樂 爸爸！

Heard happy news from my sis, that she's got her dream job! She's working in the Games industry, and I would like to say... I TOLD YOU SOOOOOOOO!!!!!! That she would get it Big congrates and I'm proud of you!

I got to sleep, taking dawg to the vet to get a jab up her bum!

I decided to come back... because I can't ease my mind with my family, right now there's only me, my two older brothers and Lucky the family dawg to keep me company. Just say that I'm going insane with just two other people in the house with no better conversation beside the usual topics that I pretty much hear about every day.

Even though I'm learning the guitar, tidying the room, doing household chores and watch Jdoramas. The only outlet for keeping me sane is the internet and chatting to my sis but frying her brain and mine is not healthly.

So yeah, I'm around now and sorting out the messages, I'm sorry that I'm deleting journals that are relating/celebrating Christmas. I'm really a Scrooge on Christmas, except the sankying (<---tight arse) on people.

Right now I'm thinking about myself, which is a first in many years, there are also things to deal with on the family stuff and I'm getting emotionally stressed because I need to sort out my life... even though I pretty much gave up living on what I want to be. I feel like shit. Sorry for the language but it pretty much sums it up...

But, I would like to say... Thank you. I am a poor excuse of a person but I really do appreciate your support. I wish that I could do or say more than a just a Thank you, but I guess it's a priceless gift since that I'm typing this in tears and saying this from my heart.

~Thank you sooo much you guys~

During the pass few days that I have been posting my thoughts and worry about my dad. Today, my dad passed away. It seems that it was cancer which was the main culprit of his illness, it spread to most of he's main organs and was at the point of unsavable. He passed on with no pain but didn't have the strength to see the whole family by his side. But will be going home to HK with the rest of our family.

What was the cause? It infected his liver which caused the Jaundice but the unanswered bits of his kidneys and lungs are still unknown. It seems that my dad really kept the hidden dark secrets of his health from us and wanted to live life to the full.

I know that I shouldn't post this up but it's to let you guys know that I won't be around until I'm ok.

I'll be requesting time off from forums and clubs that I'm helping out but I don't know when.

I'm having a Bristol Cream for honoring my dad and maybe buy him some new clothes for the funeral.

I know that I'm editting this like mad but it's ARRGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!! I really want to break something or scream at the top of my lungs because of everything that is going on.

It seems that my dad really has Jaundice. He's eyes are really yellow and seems to have the same symptoms, fever, weightloss and tireness. I read up on research that he might have to have surgery on his liver, generally it could be possiblity of a tumour... *I literally went choked my coffee reading that* General read if you want to know [link]

I just hope the NHS aren't being slackers, since that hospitals in the UK is going down the drain. I'm sure they are doing their best running the hospital but in this day of society, no one respects the elderly so they start to get rebellious of stealing the charity box and ASBO (Anti-Sociable Behaviour Order) kids at the age of 9 (maybe abit younger) rules the streets. *Sigh*

I really want to get away from everything but everything can't go away.
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Well... my dad came back from the hospital... thank god! It seems that he was in a good mood than last time. While he was in hospital, he was weak and abit tired the reason for that was the flippin' nurses and doctors were milking his blood. He ranted this to us and said that he wanted it back. At least they didn't take his sense of humour away

But yeah he is back with yummy food everywhere, literally, especially the homemade curry, he wanted it when he stepped out of the car. XD It's all ok news for now, but the problem is, is that there are alot of meds that he's taking that I'm worried about. And also they made my dad wait for his results for ages *pouts*

Now I have to work alot more since that my mum is taking abit of time off and my accident-prone brother got a piece of metal right into his finger/fingernail and I have to do some of his work load. (TT__TT ) I kindof wished that I think more for myself than other people sometimes.

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I haven't been active for ages things have started to happen. My dad isn't well and is gone to hospital I have been worrying and needed to de-stress that worrying anixety. The rubbish doctors are just rubbish and my dad is staying in the hospital for god knows when (>m< ) Baka doctors!

I'm still around but not that active as I should of been, since that I have actually got spare time to spend but it's a strain to worry about family and business.

I hope that everyone is ok, even if it's a or a hi. Will get back to things if everything is ok. Miss you guys..